Andriani Rina (Rinana)

I used to wonder on how being an adult is actually like.  At first, I thought being an adult is when you're finally getting to know of yourself, staying true to yourself.  At first, I thought being an adult is when you will know what you're doing and being confident of what you're choosing to do, being proud of what you're standing for and being happy with places you are deciding to be. At some points, I thought I have become an adult. I've been living my life humbly, you know, I never claim whatever is not mine, never depend on anyone, standing on my own ground, battling this adulthood world on my own. My life is a series of decision I took which I (so far) never really regret of (?). Somehow, lately, I feel I've become so chicken hearted, changeable, unsteady. I'll be like "I don't care" then almost kill myself. I'll be like "yeah I'm good" then "can we change the topic before I cry?" I'll be like "fuck it...